Lately I've noticed that this blog has become a bit of an emotional dumping ground for me. That's not what I set out when I started the blog so I've come to the realization that I need to make some changes. Perhaps I need to invest in a nice little paper journal or start another "anonymous" blog to write things down in. I don't like the tone I've set lately so I'm going to work on that.
One of the best pieces of advice I've ever been given was from my pastor when my husband and I were going through our pre-marital counseling. He told us when we were having trouble in our relationship it would often be from a critical standpoint of what the other person was doing wrong. You can stand there and tick off item after item of exactly what they're doing wrong and exactly what they need to do to change. His advice was that if you ever found yourself in that mindset it usually was best to stop and look inward and try to work on yourself. Now short of the obviously exclusions (drinking/abuse/etc.) I think he pretty much hit the nail on the head.
To that end I'm going to make a conscious effort to work on myself. I often find myself frustrated with others (and who doesn't?) but I need to stop and quit worrying about everyone else and worry about myself. I need to focus on the areas I want to change/improve/grow in and get to work. I certainly can't change anyone else but I absolutely can strive to live the best life possible. I know from previous experience when I do this it absolutely works for me.
Time after time God has shown me that my plans are certainly not always His plans (thank heavens!). I guess I'm still not very comfortable with change and uncertainty but I'm going to quit worrying and start working. (My new mantra: Your will not mine, Your will not mine, Your will not mine)
So, will we have sugar-coated, cheery posts every day? I *don't* think so. So not me. I definitely have a darker sense of humor that may not always convey itself properly in the written word, but I'll never be bubble-gum.
Although this is a knitting blog I don't foresee much in the way of knitting anytime soon. I'm working on existing projects (the baby hat I'm "designing" and the never-ending two at a time socks) as I can and trying to stay on top of everything else in life. I have no idea how all the other knitters in the world can manage to work full-time and still crank out the phenomenal amount of knitting that they do. (Do they not do laundry, cook or clean? I'm trying cover the basics and I still don't have time to knit like they do. Seriously? I'm not judging, just a little jealous.)
And now looking back over yet another wordy post I realize that I should have entitled this blog "Verbose Knitter on the Prairie". Much more appropriate.